It is hard to fathom but Good can come from Cancer!

This next week is going to be a long hard week for Jared as he goes in Monday through Friday doing five hours of chemotherapy each day. I know this week is going to be a hard week on him and his body. We are trying to be positive about everything but I know Jared is dreading the week ahead. It is hard to believe we are getting ready to start week four of chemo treatments. 

   This weekend Jared remained home under house a rest due to his low platelet and white cell counts. He is starting to lose more and more of his hair and at times it has been challenging for him. Kayla and I got to go to a friends wedding at the same church Jared and I got married at almost 8 years ago. It brought back wonderful memories of our wedding day and I am amazed as I got to think back at our journey as a married couple. Kayla and I attended my friends wedding reception, which was also at the same place Jared and I's was so many years ago. I watched the new couple embracing each other as a couple in their first dance and in my heart I wished my husband could be there and reminisce with me of our wedding day. The father and the bride danced together and out of no where my daughter said " I am going to dance with my Daddy on my wedding day!" My eyes teared up because I want that to for my little girl. I have tried to remain positive as we fight his fight with cancer but for a brief moment my mind slipped into to thinking about what if he is not here. I cried a few tears and tossed that way of thinking from my mind. I don't need to go there I need to remain strong, positive and keep my faith.

     I spent the evening last night cuddled up on the couch with Jared. We enjoyed watching TV and spent the night in conversations. I treasure these moments even more now and try to not take them for granted. The one thing that cancer has done positive for our family is make us more aware of our time together as a couple and family and to treasure our time together. It has also made us more aware of how amazing God is and the challenge to step out of our comfort zone and have more faith. I know it is hard to fathom that some good can come from cancer, but it has and we will embrace those lessons.